一不小心又变成了周更。最近心情挺沉闷的，很多事儿一想起来就烦，就绝望。而且我这人越活越倒，越活越累，什么乌七八糟的烂事儿都能想个颠来倒去不得安宁，偏偏最近尤甚。还是在考虑之前一直琢磨尝试的那档子事儿，偏离了原本的道路，就更偏执想去实现。班上一黑哥们儿前天还特深沉特正直对我说，most dreams come ture，当时我感动得差点儿就奔撒热泪了。我这人看着挺拧，但其实不是个倔强的主，从小到大没对什么事儿什么物件特别的执着的。如今，觉得总算有人生第一桩梦想了，但偏还是梦高了。（哎~真是心比天高，命比那啥薄啊）使劲儿梦了，被狠狠折了，碎了，也就断了念想，觉得可以再也不惦记了。其实压根不是那么回事儿，远了，弯了，碎片烂渣又粘巴粘巴回去了。感觉比以前还坚硬，看着比以前还漂亮，我就又傻了，这辈子只实现这一个还不成吗？只是现在老了，现在没胆儿了，就还想拐着曾经一起使劲做梦的那个人，继续使劲。总以为那人也没变，也还执念。特地还跑去套了磁，结果不是那么八宗事儿，我这人向来就自我意识泛滥，这回也没漏了去。折腾得心里堵了块大石头，人给了句：总有一天……罢罢罢…不去自寻烦恼了。
如今这年头，没一个安乐的，上班的烦，上学的烦，国内的烦，国外的烦，再不知道怎么过才好。前几天一旧相识动了来的脑筋，问我在这边的情况，我现在彻底体会到这世间什么事儿都跟围城似的，也就客观老实交代了下大概。当然自己并不是后悔走了这条路，只是难免总是看别家风光好，忍不住羡慕一把。知足常乐真单单是说来简单…
重新追起了CSI S08，也下了24 S08的预告片，真是一晃，看着美剧里主角脸上越来越多的褶子，真还挺感慨的。gil和sara修成正果，jack还是拼死拼活，tony其实没死…总在说，嗨…编来编去就那么回事儿了，却还在追着看着，真是冤孽。
再次放上这首歌，为了我恐怕一辈子摆脱不了的sweet dream或者nightmare，继续坚持。and i wish i could be stuck in ……
Josh Groban-America
Let us be lovers, we'll marry our fortunes together
I've got some real estate here in my bag
So we bought a pack of cigarettes and Mrs. Wagner's pies
And walked off to look for America
Cathy, I said as we boarded a Greyhound in Pittsburgh
Michigan seems like a dream to me now
It took me four days to hitchhike from Saginaw
I've gone to look for America
Laughing on the bus, playing games with the faces
She said the man in the gabardine suit was a spy
I said be careful his bowtie is really a camera
Toss me a cigarette, I think there's one in my raincoat
We smoked the last one an hour ago
So I looked at the scenery, she read her magazine
And the moon rose over an open field
Cathy, I'm lost, I said, though I knew she was sleeping
I'm empty and aching and I don't know why
Counting the cars on the New Jersey Turnpike
And they've all gone to look for America
And they've all gone to look for America
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